{"id":2385,"date":"2018-02-10T20:34:13","date_gmt":"2018-02-10T19:34:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/2018\/02\/10\/reflexiok-xii\/"},"modified":"2020-10-07T20:01:04","modified_gmt":"2020-10-07T18:01:04","slug":"reflexiok-xii","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/2018\/02\/10\/reflexiok-xii\/","title":{"rendered":"Reflexi\u00f3k szonett ciklus X."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\u2013 D\u00f6m\u00f6t\u00f6r L\u00e1szl\u00f3 Nehez\u00e9k c. k\u00f6nyv\u00e9re \u2013<\/p>\n<p>Kolesz\u00e1r No\u00e9mi Lill\u00e1hoz \u00e9s<br \/>\nD\u00f6m\u00f6t\u00f6r L\u00e1szl\u00f3nak<\/p>\n<p>X.<\/p>\n<p>Bar\u00e1taimnak<\/p>\n<p>Keveset eszem \u00e9s alig mozgok,<br \/>\nh\u00edrekt\u0151l bolydul f\u00f6l lelkem, gyomrom,<br \/>\nomladozik elef\u00e1ntcsont tornyom,<br \/>\na napi n\u00e9h\u00e1ny teend\u0151m is f\u00e1raszt,<br \/>\nbokornyi gondjaim toldom-foldom.<\/p>\n<p>K\u00e9s\u0151 m\u00e1r nekem b\u00e1rmilyen bar\u00e1t,<br \/>\nb\u00e1r az ember csak keveset tal\u00e1l,<br \/>\nr\u00e9gen nem \u00e1lmodom olyan haz\u00e1t,<br \/>\nahol nem csak \u00e9rtenek \u2013 elfogadnak<br \/>\ns nem telev\u00edzi\u00f3, k\u00f6nyv a tan\u00e1r.<\/p>\n<p>Lehetn\u00e9k b\u00e1r szemellenz\u0151s-vid\u00e1m,<br \/>\nde sz\u00e1jon lakatot, lelken ig\u00e1t<br \/>\nl\u00e1tok, mert homlokomra \u00edrj\u00e1k hib\u00e1m:<br \/>\nMagyarorsz\u00e1gon sose leszek t\u00f6bb, csak<br \/>\nokok n\u00e9lk\u00fcl szaporod\u00f3 cig\u00e1ny.<\/p>\n<p>Arctalan ajkak, d\u00e9moni szavak,<br \/>\n\u00e9rtelmetlen b\u00e1rmif\u00e9le harag,<br \/>\n\u00e1rny\u00e9kharcolnom nem lenne szabad,<br \/>\nvesztek, ha megteszem, akkor is, ha nem,<br \/>\nk\u00fczdjek vel\u00fck? Vagy tagadjam magam?<\/p>\n<p>A depresszi\u00f3m l\u00e1tja a val\u00f3t:<br \/>\nkik\u00f6tve ring s cs\u00f6ndben mer\u00fcl haj\u00f3m,<br \/>\nh\u00eddj\u00e1n r\u00e9g a korm\u00e1nyon l\u00f3g zak\u00f3m,<br \/>\nf\u00e1raszt\u00f3 tudat, mit k\u00edv\u00e1nna az \u00fat,<br \/>\nfeszes vitorl\u00e1kkal legyek kal\u00f3z.<\/p>\n<p>Bez\u00e1rk\u00f3zom, hogy senki ne b\u00e1ntson,<br \/>\nhogy a sebem valahogy se l\u00e1tsszon,<br \/>\na semmit is \u00fagy teszem \u2013 ne \u00e1rtson,<br \/>\nnaphosszat csak a sz\u00e1m\u00edt\u00f3g\u00e9p el\u0151tt<br \/>\n\u00fcl\u00f6k \u00e9s j\u00e1tszom. Bizony, csak j\u00e1tszom\u2026 <span style=\"font-size: small;\"><br \/>\n<\/span><\/p>\n<div class='watch-action'><div class='watch-position align-left'><div class='action-like'><a class='lbg-style1 like-2385 jlk' href='javascript:void(0)' data-task='like' data-post_id='2385' data-nonce='a08ac95bec' rel='nofollow'><img class='wti-pixel' src='https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/wp-content\/plugins\/wti-like-post\/images\/pixel.gif' title='Like' \/><span class='lc-2385 lc'>0<\/span><\/a><\/div><\/div> <div class='status-2385 status align-left'><\/div><\/div><div class='wti-clear'><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u2013 D\u00f6m\u00f6t\u00f6r L\u00e1szl\u00f3 Nehez\u00e9k c. k\u00f6nyv\u00e9re \u2013 Kolesz\u00e1r No\u00e9mi Lill\u00e1hoz \u00e9s D\u00f6m\u00f6t\u00f6r L\u00e1szl\u00f3nak X. Bar\u00e1taimnak Keveset eszem \u00e9s alig mozgok, h\u00edrekt\u0151l bolydul f\u00f6l lelkem, gyomrom, omladozik elef\u00e1ntcsont tornyom, a napi n\u00e9h\u00e1ny teend\u0151m is f\u00e1raszt, bokornyi gondjaim toldom-foldom. K\u00e9s\u0151 m\u00e1r nekem b\u00e1rmilyen bar\u00e1t, b\u00e1r az ember csak keveset tal\u00e1l, r\u00e9gen nem \u00e1lmodom olyan haz\u00e1t, ahol nem &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/2018\/02\/10\/reflexiok-xii\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Reflexi\u00f3k szonett ciklus X.<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":379,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[204,459,10],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2385","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-204","category-459","category-vers"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2385","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/379"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2385"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2385\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8840,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2385\/revisions\/8840"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2385"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2385"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2385"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}