{"id":22191,"date":"2026-06-23T22:43:35","date_gmt":"2026-06-23T20:43:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/?p=22191"},"modified":"2026-06-23T22:43:35","modified_gmt":"2026-06-23T20:43:35","slug":"belso-utes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/2026\/06\/23\/belso-utes\/","title":{"rendered":"Bels\u0151 \u00fct\u00e9s"},"content":{"rendered":"

Tekse J\u00f3zsefn\u00e9 eml\u00e9k\u00e9re<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n

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\u00c9leted el\u0151ttem hullt ezer atomra,<\/span><\/p>\n

ki magam megv\u00e1dolom, magam megintem;<\/span><\/p>\n

f\u00e1jva n\u00e9zve a zaklatott tudatomba,<\/span><\/p>\n

amelyben egyre \u00e9rthetetlenebb minden.<\/span><\/p>\n

Gy\u00e1szruh\u00e1m kimosom, kirakom, felveszem,<\/span><\/p>\n

elfogadtatva magammal, hogy menni kell;<\/span><\/p>\n

halva bele, sz\u00e1zszor \u00e9s ezerszeresen,<\/span><\/p>\n

megsz\u00e9d\u00fclve, k\u00fcszk\u00f6dve csak a semmivel.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Rem\u00e9lve csak, hogy az eml\u00e9kez\u00e9s seg\u00edt,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy b\u00e1nataimat velem egy\u00fctt \u00e9ld \u00e1t;<\/span><\/p>\n

bocs\u00e1tva meg szememnek t\u00e9ved\u00e9seit,<\/span><\/p>\n

fogadva el az egyed\u00fcll\u00e9t \u00e1rny\u00e9k\u00e1t.<\/span><\/p>\n

Amely velem alszik, \u00e9s k\u00f6vet minden\u00fctt,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy a titok titok maradjon miattad;<\/span><\/p>\n

ki j\u00f3l ismerted a megszenvedett der\u0171t,<\/span><\/p>\n

kinek angyala nem is lehetne riadtabb.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ki a sorsod le nem becs\u00fclted, nem hordtad,<\/span><\/p>\n

nem mutatva gyenges\u00e9ged senki el\u0151tt,<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00fagy n\u00e9zve csak a jelent\u00e9stelen holdat,<\/span><\/p>\n

tudva, hogy a f\u00e1jdalmad ezerszerte t\u00f6bb.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00dagy \u00e9rezve, szavam is ostoba, vacak,<\/span><\/p>\n

nem is tudva, hogy a k\u00e9nyszer r\u00e1m mi\u00e9rt t\u00f6r;<\/span><\/p>\n

mi legfeljebb agyam t\u00fck\u00f6rj\u00e1t\u00e9ka csak<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e1lmodva a rem\u00e9ny kiteljesed\u00e9s\u00e9r\u0151l.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Pr\u00f3b\u00e1lva id\u0151t hagyni, hogy megfelelhess,<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00fagy \u00e9rezve, legszebb szavam is csak \u00e1tok;<\/span><\/p>\n

mint aki a bizalomban r\u00e9g nem teljes,<\/span><\/p>\n

mint aki meg-, mindent csak ut\u00f3lag l\u00e1tok.<\/span><\/p>\n

El\u0151ttem csak \u00fajabb \u00e9s \u00fajabb emelet,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy igyekezetemen m\u00e1r csak te l\u00e1ss \u00e1t;<\/span><\/p>\n

kit a vigasz is csak k\u00e9telyekbe temet,<\/span><\/p>\n

m\u00e1r csak a f\u00e1jdalom elragadtat\u00e1s\u00e1t<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u00e9rezve, \u00e9s annak a gy\u00f6ny\u00f6r\u0171s\u00e9g\u00e9t,<\/span><\/p>\n

megpr\u00f3b\u00e1lva meg\u00e9rteni az ittl\u00e9tem;<\/span><\/p>\n

kit a k\u00edn most sz\u00e9tszaggat \u00e9s szanasz\u00e9t t\u00e9p,<\/span><\/p>\n

nem tudva, agyamban mi szikr\u00e1zik m\u00e9g benn.<\/span><\/p>\n

Pr\u00f3b\u00e1lva \u00f6sszerakni \u00e9leted t\u00fckr\u00e9t,<\/span><\/p>\n

kutatva a sorsod \u00e9s a mi\u00e9rteket;<\/span><\/p>\n

ki elhittem, a ront\u00f3 t\u0171z tovat\u0171nt r\u00e9g,<\/span><\/p>\n

amely megt\u00f6rt \u00e9s sz\u00e9td\u00falt \u00e9s ki\u00e9getett.<\/span><\/p>\n

Continue reading Bels\u0151 \u00fct\u00e9s<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":295,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1200,10],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22191","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-1200","category-vers"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22191","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/295"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=22191"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22191\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":22193,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22191\/revisions\/22193"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=22191"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=22191"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=22191"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}