{"id":21384,"date":"2026-05-27T16:41:56","date_gmt":"2026-05-27T14:41:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/?p=21384"},"modified":"2026-05-27T16:41:56","modified_gmt":"2026-05-27T14:41:56","slug":"akaratlan-akarattal","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/2026\/05\/27\/akaratlan-akarattal\/","title":{"rendered":"Akaratlan akarattal"},"content":{"rendered":"

Nem sz\u00e1molom, magam eddig<\/span><\/p>\n

t\u00e9rdre m\u00e1r h\u00e1nyszor k\u00e9sztettem,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy a farkast\u00f6rv\u00e9nyeket,<\/span><\/p>\n

b\u00e1r\u00e1nylelkemre h\u00e1nyszor szabt\u00e1k;<\/span><\/p>\n

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hogy h\u00e1nyszor verte a sz\u00e9gyen,<\/span><\/p>\n

a sz\u00edvem, lelkem \u00e9s testem,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy az \u0151szintes\u00e9gem \u00e9s<\/span><\/p>\n

igazs\u00e1gom le h\u00e1nyszor kacagt\u00e1k.<\/span><\/p>\n

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K\u00f6vetve ellenem \u00fajabb<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e1rul\u00e1st, \u00fajabb v\u00e9ts\u00e9get,<\/span><\/p>\n

azt gondolva, \u00f6nmagamhoz<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9n m\u00e1r r\u00e9gen hozz\u00e1szoktam;<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

nem keresve igazamat<\/span><\/p>\n

m\u00e1r, sem a b\u00f6lcs der\u00e9ks\u00e9get,<\/span><\/p>\n

elveszve az eszm\u00e9l\u00e9sben<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9s a szent k\u00e1pr\u00e1zatokban.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00dagy \u00e1llva az \u00fct\u00e9seket,<\/span><\/p>\n

zoksz\u00f3 n\u00e9lk\u00fcl \u00e9s kem\u00e9nyen,<\/span><\/p>\n

rem\u00e9lve, hogy a sorsomon<\/span><\/p>\n

majd ford\u00edtok \u00e9s jobb\u00edtok;<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

meg\u0151rizve az \u00f6r\u00f6m\u00f6m,<\/span><\/p>\n

a hitem \u00e9s az er\u00e9nyem,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy az \u00e1lmod el\u0151ttem ne<\/span><\/p>\n

legyen m\u00e1r nagyobb titok.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Megj\u00e1rva m\u00e1r minden poklot,<\/span><\/p>\n

minden vermet, minden katlant,<\/span><\/p>\n

csillagokat \u00e9rintve meg,<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9s \u00e9rve angyalk\u00e9nt f\u00f6ldet;<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

cselekedve szents\u00e9gtelent,<\/span><\/p>\n

hihetetlent \u00e9s p\u00e1ratlant,<\/span><\/p>\n

merve, hol az \u00f6rd\u00f6gn\u00e9l, hol<\/span><\/p>\n

az \u00farn\u00e1l is vakmer\u0151bbet.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

V\u00e1rva csak a p\u00e1lfordul\u00e1st,<\/span><\/p>\n

tiszta sz\u00edvvel, t\u00e1rt karokkal,<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00fagy hajtva a v\u00e9gzetemre<\/span><\/p>\n

fejem, ak\u00e1r egy \u00e1lomra;<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

megbocs\u00e1t\u00e1st k\u00f6vetelve,<\/span><\/p>\n

a t\u00fczes \u00e1ldozatokkal<\/span><\/p>\n

t\u00e9pve ki a sz\u00edvem, helyezve<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9rted a r\u00e9zolt\u00e1romra.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Rem\u00e9lve, hogy kulcsom egyszer<\/span><\/p>\n

a megfelel\u0151 z\u00e1rba kattan,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy egym\u00e1sra nem kell soha<\/span><\/p>\n

t\u00f6bb\u00e9 kivonnunk a kardunk;<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

n\u00f3gatva a d\u00e9monaim,<\/span><\/p>\n

napr\u00f3l-napra konokabban,<\/span><\/p>\n

rem\u00e9lve, hogy r\u00e1nk k\u00f6sz\u00f6nt, mit<\/span><\/p>\n

egy\u00fctt kezdt\u00fcnk \u00e9s akartunk.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Hogy szeretet \u00e9s meg\u00e9rt\u00e9s<\/span><\/p>\n

n\u00e9lk\u00fcl egyik\u00fcnk se \u00e9ljen,<\/span><\/p>\n

nem sz\u00e1molva eddig magam<\/span><\/p>\n

halott\u00e1 h\u00e1nyszor altattam;<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

nem k\u00e9rdezve, mulattatni<\/span><\/p>\n

m\u00e9rt mulattatott szesz\u00e9lyem,<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00fagy \u00e9lve, hogy hadd lehessek<\/span><\/p>\n

egyszer m\u00e9g a hatalmadban.<\/span><\/p>\n

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