{"id":20731,"date":"2026-05-22T21:35:43","date_gmt":"2026-05-22T19:35:43","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/?p=20731"},"modified":"2026-05-22T21:35:43","modified_gmt":"2026-05-22T19:35:43","slug":"eszmeles","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/2026\/05\/22\/eszmeles\/","title":{"rendered":"Eszm\u00e9l\u00e9s"},"content":{"rendered":"

M\u00e1sodik h\u00f3napja tartotta fogs\u00e1gban k\u00e9pzeletemet<\/span><\/p>\n

valami megmagyar\u00e1zhatatlanul r\u00e1mt\u00f6r\u0151 tehetetlens\u00e9g,<\/span><\/p>\n

buk\u00e1sra \u00edt\u00e9lt v\u00e1llalkoz\u00e1snak t\u0171nt b\u00e1rmit is \u00edrni;<\/span><\/p>\n

a fest\u00e9kes tubusokra, v\u00e1zlatt\u00f6mb\u00f6kre kezdett<\/span><\/p>\n

le\u00fclepedni a por.<\/span><\/p>\n

M\u00e1r-m\u00e1r h\u00e1trahaj\u00edtottam hitemet, mondv\u00e1n:\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

a l\u00e9tez\u00e9s kifejezetten egyszer\u0171bb alkot\u00f3i v\u00e1ls\u00e1g n\u00e9lk\u00fcl,<\/span><\/p>\n

van mi\u00e9rt agg\u00f3dni ezen k\u00edv\u00fcl b\u0151ven, finoman sz\u00f3lva.<\/span><\/p>\n

Rem\u00e9nytelen\u00fcl \u00e1lomba zuhanva, ott s\u00f6t\u00e9t barlangban<\/span><\/p>\n

botork\u00e1ltam, kezemben gyertyacsonkkal,<\/span><\/p>\n

f\u00e9nye a falba karcolt sz\u00f6vegre vet\u00fclt:<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201eTedd egyenesbe ide-oda\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

kiperd\u00fcl\u0151 vil\u00e1godat,<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9s ha k\u00e9ptelennek t\u0171nik is, hidd,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy k\u00e9pes vagy a neked sz\u00e1nt<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00faton tartani.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Azt\u00e1n felriadtam, \u00e9s jelnek v\u00e9ve az el\u0151bbi \u00e1lmot, \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n

pr\u00f3b\u00e1ltam \u00edrni, b\u00e1rmit, mindhi\u00e1ba.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00cdgy aludtam vissza, mindegy, csak ne legyek \u00e9bren,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

ne kelljen szemben\u00e9znem a cs\u00fafos val\u00f3s\u00e1ggal.<\/span><\/p>\n

P\u00e1r napra r\u00e1 az asztalomn\u00e1l \u00fclve eszm\u00e9ltem:<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00fajra \u00e9letet lehelek a fagyott szavakba,<\/span><\/p>\n

sz\u00ednekkel t\u00f6lt\u00f6m ki a h\u00f3feh\u00e9r pap\u00edrokat.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Annyi magam alkotta vil\u00e1g k\u00f6z\u00f6tt ing\u00e1ztam,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy m\u00e9g maga \u00d3z is belezavarodna,<\/span><\/p>\n

emiatt rekedtem meg a jelenben;<\/span><\/p>\n

s imm\u00e1r tudom, l\u00e9tezni lehet alkot\u00e1s n\u00e9lk\u00fcl,<\/span><\/p>\n

de \u00e9lni \u00e9rtelm\u00e9t vesztett\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

Continue reading Eszm\u00e9l\u00e9s<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":352,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1140,10],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-20731","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-1140","category-vers"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20731","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/352"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=20731"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20731\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":20733,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20731\/revisions\/20733"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=20731"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=20731"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=20731"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}