{"id":17189,"date":"2024-12-09T00:31:36","date_gmt":"2024-12-08T23:31:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/?p=17189"},"modified":"2024-12-09T00:32:18","modified_gmt":"2024-12-08T23:32:18","slug":"az-el-nem-harithatorol","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/fedelnelkul.hu\/en\/2024\/12\/09\/az-el-nem-harithatorol\/","title":{"rendered":"Az el nem h\u00e1r\u00edthat\u00f3r\u00f3l"},"content":{"rendered":"

M\u00e9g most is, a te szavad sz\u00f3l\u00edt\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

meg, \u00e9s h\u00edv mer\u00e9szen,<\/span><\/p>\n

aki fel\u00e9 most is tartok,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9s m\u00e9g most is l\u00e9pkedek;<\/span><\/p>\n

meg\u00e1ll\u00edtva k\u00f6zben<\/span><\/p>\n

l\u00e9legzetem \u00e9s sz\u00edvver\u00e9sem,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy felaj\u00e1nljam neked\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

sorba az \u00fcdv\u00f6s v\u00e9tkeket.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00d6r\u00fclve, ha bennem nem csak<\/span><\/p>\n

b\u0171n\u00f6s \u00fcdv\u00f6ket tal\u00e1ln\u00e1l,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy a h\u0171s\u00e9gem v\u00e1ra<\/span><\/p>\n

hadd legyen egyszer v\u00e9dett;<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy ne \u00e9rezzem t\u00f6bb\u00e9,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy nem is vagyok tal\u00e1n m\u00e1r,<\/span><\/p>\n

v\u00e9n juh\u00e1szk\u00e9nt \u00e9s \u00e1rvak\u00e9nt\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

n\u00e9zve a messzes\u00e9get.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Mint aki a rosszkedv mocsar\u00e1ban<\/span><\/p>\n

m\u00e1r annyit hentergett,<\/span><\/p>\n

mag\u00e1t el a hideggel<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9s a mag\u00e1nnyal \u00e1rasztva,<\/span><\/p>\n

kinek a t\u00e1rs a legnagyobb<\/span><\/p>\n

sz\u00fcks\u00e9g\u00e9ben sem kellett,<\/span><\/p>\n

v\u00e1rva csak a k\u00e9rd\u00e9sre<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9s a becs\u00fcletes v\u00e1laszra.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

B\u00fajva meg az \u00e9szrevehetetlenben<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9s a kev\u00e9sben\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

el, nem tudva a rem\u00e9ny<\/span><\/p>\n

mi\u00e9rt l\u00f6k, \u00e9s mi\u00e9rt haj\u00edt;<\/span><\/p>\n

hagyva a vill\u00e1mokban,<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9s hagyva a j\u00e9gver\u00e9sben,<\/span><\/p>\n

mint akit az Isten is<\/span><\/p>\n

sz\u00e1mtalan ravaszs\u00e1gba vitt.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Nem adva magam sem<\/span><\/p>\n

a bizalomnak, sem a hitnek,<\/span><\/p>\n

nem v\u00e1llalva egyetlen feladatot<\/span><\/p>\n

sem, mit r\u00e1m r\u00f3ttak;<\/span><\/p>\n

mint akinek napjait<\/span><\/p>\n

az \u00f6rd\u00f6g\u00f6k szentelik meg,<\/span><\/p>\n

k\u00e9pzelve szavakat,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

a gy\u00e9m\u00e1ntn\u00e1l is ragyog\u00f3bbat.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Le, nem tudva mi\u00e9rt \u00edrnak,<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9s el mi\u00e9rt temetnek,<\/span><\/p>\n

mint aki napj\u00e1ban sz\u00e1zszor<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00e9s ezerszer is megt\u00f6r;<\/span><\/p>\n

hallgatva, ahogy m\u00f6g\u00f6ttem<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00fajra \u00f6sszenevetnek,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy m\u00e9g \u00e1lmodni se merjek<\/span><\/p>\n

a t\u00f6bbr\u0151l, \u00e9s a szebbr\u0151l.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Kit az ujjai k\u00f6z\u00e9\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

megint a m\u00fazs\u00e1ja teker,<\/span><\/p>\n

ami ellen nem tehetek\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

semmit, hiszen tudod j\u00f3l;<\/span><\/p>\n

nem tudva, fel, hogy<\/span><\/p>\n

t\u00e1masszalak \u00e9s temesselek el,<\/span><\/p>\n

hogy meg ne bolonduljak\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

a sok eszembe jutott\u00f3l.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Mintha bennem gonosz<\/span><\/p>\n

sz\u00e9lv\u00e9sz s\u00fcv\u00f6ltene \u00e9s d\u00falna,<\/span><\/p>\n

ki el, a f\u00e9lelmet \u00e9s\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

a retteg\u00e9st sem oszlattam;<\/span><\/p>\n

kinek vil\u00e1ga meg t\u0151led<\/span><\/p>\n

sz\u00e9p\u00fclne \u00e9s jobbulna,<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00fagy cipelve a sz\u00edvemet,<\/span><\/p>\n

ak\u00e1r csak egy rossz katlant.<\/span><\/p>\n

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